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My moods are coming faster these days. It used to be hours that I felt it's like minutes. They are harder to feel coming on...and most times I feel things touching me....hear them yelling at me....see them walking away. NO I AM NOT INSANE. Or maybe I am. I don't know.

Hah...a few of you have picked up on that right away. And I thank you. Sometimes I don't even notice how down I am...but when someone says so...I can do something to fix it.

I'm just so tired, I have NO energy. I feel like a light bulb that is growing rather dim. I feel that one day I will burn out completey. And I don't want that.

The little things that used to keep me happy for hours lately only hold my attention for mere minutes..or even seconds. I haven't written in weeks. I have sketched in months. I haven't sang in days. What is wrong with me? I don't even want to go out and hike anymore. Even soaking in a hot bath with my fav book holds no appeal.

My next doc appt is on the 16...perhaps he can do something. I dread more meds....but for my sanity..I see no other option. Now don't give me your health nut mumbo jumbo. I don't need it. I have heard it all. I have been this way for far to long for a damn excersize routine to make it better. I eat well. I meditate. I do yoga three times a day.

*sighs again* That's all I can think of now.

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Posted on 05:06PM on Dec 1st, 2009
I'm so glad that you understand. Just knowing I'm not alone helps. *hugs* I love you too.
Posted on 05:15PM on Dec 1st, 2009
Aww are a doll. *hugs*
Posted on 05:22PM on Dec 1st, 2009
I'm sorry darling, let me know if I can be of help. *hugs*
Posted on 05:28PM on Dec 1st, 2009
Hugs and kisses and happy thoughts coming your way!!!
Posted on 05:30PM on Dec 1st, 2009
I don't know what to say Pickle. :( I wish i could take all your pain away but i can't. all i can offer is a shoulder for you to cry on, an ear for you to talk to (it's still attatched to the rest of me, don't worry) and a mountain of hugs *huge hug*
Posted on 05:35PM on Dec 1st, 2009
I wont say a thing. I understand this way too much...:hugs:
Posted on 05:48PM on Dec 1st, 2009
Oh honey!! Your light is way to precious to let it burn out.....
I have no advice as I know how you feel, and I can't figure out how to help me through those times, so I am not going to pretend to have some kind of miracle advice for you.
Just know you aren't alone. That there are people here who care. We love ya, LP! ((HGUS))
Posted on 05:00PM on Dec 2nd, 2009
You are all amazing friends. *sighs and group hugs*
Posted on 06:00PM on Dec 2nd, 2009
Major Pickle Licks coming.....
Posted on 06:01PM on Dec 2nd, 2009
Hahaha!! HS you are crazy!
Posted on 06:07PM on Dec 2nd, 2009
I can't help it!!!! I didn't even know you were covered in whip cream over at the circus either!!!! YUMMMMMMMM!
Posted on 06:09PM on Dec 2nd, 2009
LMAO! Damn psychic sailor!!
Posted on 06:12PM on Dec 2nd, 2009
Darlingheart, I empathise. Truly, doctors just spout the same old bollocks. My EPFamily is my main anchor now. I love you. *hugs*
Posted on 06:13PM on Dec 2nd, 2009
Could be just coincidence that I like to lick lots of things....
Posted on 06:15PM on Dec 2nd, 2009
TRW...I love you sis. You are always there when I need you. *hugs*

*gasps* HS!! Shame on you!
Posted on 06:19PM on Dec 2nd, 2009
Want me to text you some more of those jokes? I have tons of them? ;P
Posted on 06:25PM on Dec 2nd, 2009
Haha sure!!!
Posted on 06:27PM on Dec 2nd, 2009
Sorry LP.... TMI??? *hangs head for sullying blog thread*
Posted on 06:31PM on Dec 2nd, 2009
*giggles* Nevah HS!!! *lifts head and grins*
Posted on 06:34PM on Dec 2nd, 2009
you know she's Puss. Licking is her thing! Or is that THANG!
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